its been crazy around the Goins house, after pinning and graduation and Landon getting out of school and starting my new job it was definitly time for a vacation and we had a great time. It was very bittersweet, this time last year while we were in PCB I was pregnant with Delaney. I couldnt have been happier.

 

Then after returning from this vacation everything in my pregnancy started to change :( It had been great until this point. Little did I know this would be one of the last pictures taken of me with my princess in my belly.   So going back this year after the hard year we have been through and not having our baby with us and Landon was a very hard pill to swallow, I broke down at times, especially when we ate at Sharky's. The grieving process is terrible, you can be just fine and then something you see, hear or smell takes you right back to reality that my baby is in Heaven. At Sharky's last year I was miserable, the smell of seafood and the first time I had tried to eat shrimp during this pregnancy was all to much and I got sick as stink :) I am sure the workers hated me for puking in their bathroom... and then this year we get there and that same smell hit me and took me right back and I missed the time and the feeling of her safe and sound in my stomach. I have been struggling for a long time with wanting to have family pictures made, because all of my family isnt here and I dont ever want to feel like we are moving on without her, because yes she was only here for 7 months but she changed Tanner, Landon and I forever and we will ALWAYS be a family of 4 unless the sweet Lord decides to make us a family of 5 one day.  During our family pictures I wanted to remember her ......

  I love how in this picture you see that ray of light coming down behind us, hi sweet girl.. we love you mommy is wearing your bracelet that you were wearing when you went to heaven and Daddy is wearing your bracelet and doesnt take it off..

Daddy and Pop never take these bracelets off, we all miss her so much and wish we had more time with her to love on her, neither does Aunt T, Aunt Corky (Wore your bracelet for protection when she went in to have sweet Bristol and Kennedy, uncle Shane made sure she had it on, and on the board it said your angels "Delaney Claire" ), Aunt KC, Papaw Rick, Nanny Dora.

I love these pictures and feel like they showed alot of Delaney, I wish she was here.

Now as I prepare to take my state board exam I just needed to write about my sweet girl to get some sadness off my chest.. We love and miss our sweet girl every day..